Since Jerusalem

 Life after life, I remembered His eyes, but life after life, nothing changed. It wasn’t working. Finally, I agreed to be broken down, decrystallized.  It would not be pleasant. Centuries ago, I was tortured and totally humiliated.  I became full of hatred, a toady; I...

Staying with a Disturbance

From out of the blue, someone has criticized me.  There was malice in their tone of voice, a wish to hurt.  I am disturbed and offended. If I can not contact anything real in myself, one of three things is likely to happen: 1)  I will ignore the whole thing, and the...

The Shame Factory

It is difficult for people today (or even then) to understand how a small number of guards could keep a large number of concentration camp prisoners in thrall. The explanation lies in the experiences which all the prisoners underwent. From being transported by cattle...

About Mr. Gurdjieff

     About Mr. Gurdjieff This most remarkable man brought Jesus’ esoteric teaching about conscience back from the obscurity that 1900 years of wiseacring and self-calming had made of it.  And he did it as service to the Higher. As my teacher, Mrs. Staveley said of...